Rio Ferdinand has opened up about the tragic passing of his wife ahead of his Being Mum And Dad documentary.
In May 2015, former professional footballer Rio Ferdinand’s life changed forever when his wife Rebecca passed away from breast cancer, aged just 34.
Speaking to Holly Willoughby and Phillip Schofield on ITV's This Morning today, Rio opened up: "That's probably the hardest point before she passed away, that you have to tell your children you're going home from the hospital today and never seeing your mum again.
"I wouldn't wish that on anybody. You're just thrown into a situation where you've got to deal with the school run for instance.
"Your appreciation for mothers and how they cope and how they deal with the school run.
"I thought I was playing a big part of the school run but I soon realised there's so many things that we as men don't even consider."
He reflected: "I wish I could have said more, I wish I could have done more... you hurt yourself. I would just shut her down and close the conversation, I didn't want to get emotional.
"Without talking, you miss that opportunity to have that idea about what your partner would have wanted, and that's a tormenting thing."
In Being Mum And Dad tonight on BBC One, Rio explores ways of managing grief - including his own - and discovers that the best way for parents to help their children move on with their lives is to first rebuild their own.
With around 75 men aged under 50 becoming widowers every day in the UK, this intimate film also offers a broader insight into how young husbands and fathers cope with grief, as Rio speaks to other bereaved men who share their experiences.
Rio Ferdinand: Being Mum And Dad airs tonight, Tuesday 28 March at 9PM on BBC One.