Former X Factor judge Tulisa has spoken out about how her sex tape 'destroyed her'.
The signer saw herself on the tabloid frontpages last year after a leaked clip of herself hit the internet.
"That really destroyed me on a personal level, on a mental level and I think I struggled with being a public figure because I felt it was being in the industry and this lifestyle that had made me feel like this," she said in an interview with Jonathan Ross.
Tulisa explains: "[I thought] 'If I wasn't famous the tape wouldn't be everywhere, I wouldn't be this way' and I got a little bit bitter a bit defensive and because I felt like everyone was judging me from it, I then had a chip on my shoulder."
But the N-Dubz performer was looking to the future and revealed how her rather turbulent few years has provided "a lot of positives".
She said: "Where I'm at now, I would describe it as the kind of life experience that you can't buy.
"It felt like I fit ten years into one… I feel like I've taken a lot of positives from it and I've had a real journey, learnt a lot of life lessons in the year that I've had and I feel like I've grown and changed in ways that I wouldn't have if it hadn't have happened."
Tonight will see Tulisa make her comeback on The X Factor, sitting in for an ill Mel B at the final.