TOWIE's James 'Arg' Argent has confessed he still has feelings for Lydia Bright, and it'll kill him to see her with anyone else.
The pair split earlier this year, but Arg confesses to this week's new magazine that he doesn't want to move on.
He says: "I just need time to sort my head out. It's all too raw at the moment to think about looking at anyone else."
And he hopes Lydia will be feeling the same, adding: "It would kill me to see her with another man. I would be devastated. I would be in a really bad way. It would be the worst thing I could ever imagine."
In the interview, out now, Arg also reveals his side to the arguments that saw the pair go their separate ways.
He explains: "I think we are both just totally confused and have been arguing so much over stupid little things, it has just got too much to handle.
"We need our space and we needed a break to sort out what we are going to do."
The Only Way Is Essex continues tonight on ITV2.