Amanda Barrie has spilled all on her recent time on Celebrity Big Brother.
The actress took part in the latest series in January and says it was "the hardest thing I’ve ever done."
In a new interview, Amanda revealed: "I was terrified beforehand, because you’re going into the unknown and have no control.
“I wasn’t in a very good state when I went in. I had bronchitis – on the first night in the house I had to be rushed off for urgent medical attention – and my sister-in-law had just died, which was hugely upsetting."
Amanda candidly explained: “Over the last couple of years, we’ve also lost my nephew, 42, and his wife, 38, so it’s been a tough time. That gave me a perspective.
"If it got hard in the house I’d think, ‘Well, my sister-in-law would have loved to have this time and opportunity’. It also reminded me that Big Brother wasn’t of cosmic importance."
Although Amanda found the going tough at times, she also reflected on the unexpected highs.
The former soap star told the Press Association (via BT.com):“Singing with Boyzone’s Shane [Lynch], giving Wayne Sleep a bath and holding hands with footballer John Barnes in the bed next to me was all great fun, but you’re in a dimension you’ve never been in before – unless you’ve been a hostage!
“Your entire free will is taken away; you don’t know what time it is or when you’ll sleep or wake up. Just as you’ve made friends you have to find fault with them, because of the nominations."
Amanda concluded: "I’d do it again – it’s probably good to fend for yourself without your support network every so often.”
Celebrity Big Brother will return in the summer for what could be its last ever series.
As yet, Channel 5 hasn't revealed if it will be renewing the series beyond the end of the year.
Host Emma Willis recently revealed she was being kept in the dark just like the rest of us.
She said: “I’m hoping it doesn’t go anywhere, but no one’s told me anything yet. I would love it to make 2020. A nice round number and 20 years would be amazing."